The blue mage wanted to believe he had escaped the chimera king's wrath, but as he stood within his ruined kingdom, amid the smolder and destruction, he could no longer hold onto that hope. Spurned by his hatred for being abandoned, the king of demons had sent his beasts to exact revenge upon the blue mage and his newfound home, the snake, the goat, the dragon, and the great lion. The monsters however had left him alive to revel in the suffering they caused, a mistake they would soon come to regret. Fantasy has always been an important facet of my journey through life, and with its heroes I found a way to overcome and move past my mental illness. Within the pages of the blue mage's struggle lies stories, confessions, and admissions of my own journey to overcome the trauma of my past and my battle with my inner demons. Battles with eating disorders, depression, and self-hate become a a mirror to the mage's battles with the chimera king's army, and eventually the man himself.This book is my love letter to fantasy and how its tropes and traditions helped me overcome the many faces of my mental illness. My words are unedited and raw, vacant of any sugar coated analogies so be warned this story contains many triggers for anyone sensitive to issues of mental health.